I recently attended a session of Hearts at Home where the speaker was discussing Titus 2: 3-5.
"Likewise, teach the older women to be reverent in the way they live, not to be slanderers or addicted to much wine, but to teach what is good. Then they can train the younger women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at home, to be kind , and to be subject to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of God."In order to teach these things, one must be living them herself. Scripturally, we are to lead by example. Looking around my home right now, I have failed this ideal miserably. And I can't even bring myself to read about "The Virtuous Wife" in Proverbs 31.
I feel like one big failure.
It is in these moments that the enemy whispers in my ear. "See? You're not enough. You can't handle the pressure of being a wife and a mom. You'll never amount to anything. You'll never be good enough. You'll never measure up. You suck."
And he's right. I am one big ball of mess. I won't ever measure up. I will never be good enough.
I will never be enough on my own. I don't deserve God's love. I've done nothing to make myself worthy of His notice. But the good news, the gospel, is that I don't have to do anything to earn God's love. He's given it freely to me, long before I ever knew His name. Through that love, I have the power of Christ, who died for me even in all of my failures and screwups, to hold me up. And that makes me enough. HE makes me enough.
So today, I am going to cry out to God for His mercy and deliverance from these painful, difficult, demoralizing circumstances. I'm going to rely on Him to show me the next step to take, the next word to write, the next thing that needs done. And I'm going to trust that He's holding me in the palm of His hand. I am His child, He loves me, and He will see me through this day. He will set me free!
This post is part of #livefreeThursday with the wonderful women over at Suzie Eller's blog, tsuzanneeller.com. Check out the links there for more encouragement.